So i really need help with this?

my junior year of highschool i started hanging out with pam. she was alot of fun and she had this friend kirstie. She was beautiful. I thought she would have a bf or something so i didnt even try with her. But then i did and she had no bf. we feel in love. Big time. Now we both had reallly rough pasts. we clicked we both understood eachother and everything we have been through. I was gettin in lots of trouble i wasnt doin good in school really skrewing up my life. and she was gettin abused by her parents and doin some serious drugs but when we started dateing it all went away she got off the drugs and i stoped gettin in trouble. But she was still gettin abused and it killed me there was nothing i could do but stand by her side and help her. now i cant even talk to her but we have a deal that we wont give up on eachother she now in fostercare and doin better but her mom made it to where she cant see me. i love her soo much and want to stay with her. Myheartormy headwhichonedoifollow?